scatter brained.

so..the past few weeks have been anything but great. but, there are always a few things to make life seem a little better, and hope for the future. But since no one likes a pity party, im going to focus on the positive!
My little brother and his friend (my adopted brother,) Isa flew in on saturday. Lins and i picked them up. I had been emotional before, crying and such, venting to my sister. But when i saw him my heart felt so happy for the first time in a while. My mom flew in today, and i cant wait to see her. I miss my family more than anything! I wish my daddy could have come...but hes got to work and i will see him in june anyway. Cant wait to spend time with them. I need it.
Today was so amazing. The weather was phenomenal, and i spent the day with ashpat12 and heavierhpf. (Twitter lingo for ashlee and heather.) We got noodles and company, then went to the park behind walmart. It was so fantastic. We layed and watched this retard family play stupid games. Ashlee was so intent on teaching them the rules of their own game. I love to stare at people and make them feel uncomfortable..pretty much it was a success. then we jammed out to Salt-n-peppa, which is always a booster. We dropped heavier off and pumped LFO and sang at the top of our lungs. Nothing like a "so bad its good" song, a little sunshine, good friends, and fond memories to make you feel happy.

Today was great. Everyday gets a little easier, although there is still so much to figure out.
Hopin he calls.
-Hannah.

Different types of people (a servers nightmare)

Anyone who is a server at a resturaunt cannot say they dont judge. As soon as a table walks in, gaurenteed they decide which category you fit in, and then your level of service is decided from there...You are either:

The big spender: Your probably on your first date, or your trying to impress someone. If your going to order a ton of food, make sure you have the money for it..AND for a tip. When you get the bill you play it off like you have enough, but dont hand over your just-enough dollar bills and tell me to keep your change. Thanks for the 92 cents.

The family: You and your family come in for a nice dinner. You allow your kids to get water, you joke with your waitress about how no one tips in provo, order a large pizza for all 14 of your kids, and even though you mentioned poor tips in provo, you still fail to tip. Last I heard, its not 10 years ago, and a good tip isnt 10%.

The old people: This can go either way. If its two women out to eat, your screwed. Their small salad bars and water with lemon garuntees about a 1.00 tip. If its two men, it might go up to 2.00. If its a couple, and the man hands you the card your safe. If its the wife who is "budgeting" you're better off serving a squirrel.

The daters: Often this could go with the big spender--your tip goes up with age. Provo guys tend to try to impress their date, BUT she's not impressed and neither am I if you leave me 15%. Its better than nothing, but what will it hurt you to help out the poor starving college student serving you?

The Lunch crew: Lunch specials are stupid. We all know it. But if your table starts complaining about the high prices, you can always suggest easy mac or store bought pizza. No matter how much you complain the prices stay the same and your service will probably come down. But then you have the regulars---you know their order and they love it. They will usually tip well.

The normal: You cant decide whether they will be easy or not. So you give them great service. IT either pays off and you'll remember their face for the next time they come in-whether its becuase you warn all other servers about how much they suck, or that they are lucky.

The loner: You try to be as nice as possible, becuase they are alone in a resturaunt. Sit and have a great meal, but if you sit and do your crosswords, sudoku, or read the paper for hours on end, i will kill you. I dont live at the joint and i dont want to stay while you figure out what the extension of a right angle is for 6 down. I dont care, and no one will check your puzzle anyway.

Anyway, im sure i missed some. But just know your being judged.:)

CANT HARDLY WAIT!

i wish more than anything you were coming--i love you daddy.

momma! I cant wait for you to get here---thanks for putting up with me and loving me always.

william and isa! cant wait! love you both.

when it rains it pours...

this week was going pretty good. until today.

-thursday was mine and chris 6 months..we celebrated with friends by cooking a fab dinner and just hanging out...so great:)

-friday, relaxed all day in bed. felt good physically and mentally, finally, since the crash.

-saturday. There honestly is no one in this world that i love more than my nephews and niece. I have been in the worst slump, and just one day with them turned my world upside down. Chris and I watched them as lins and dave went to the temple and did some bed shopping for dylan...(shannah hannah, wake me up when my bed gets here!) We had so much fun. We went swimming, did puzzles, watched movies and just spent time with each other. my favorite part was watching chris' reactions to emma regurgatating her food then eating it again. best birth control ever! (pictures at the top arent recent...thats my beautiful sister with Emma, and the one below is the greatest boys you'd ever meet, dawson on the left, and dylan on the right.) Oh, ps. On the way home to meet a friend so she could drive me back to provo Chris and i got pulled over. The cop asked chris for his information and then asked for mine..so weird! Chris asked why he got pulled over, and the cop said he was going 5 over the speed limit...talk about a highway patrolman with NOTHING TO DO!

Then, theres sunday. I woke up feeling like someone had placed 2000 things on my list of things to do, but i had nothing. Dinner with grandma. But when i got to grandmas house, i kinda lost it. Who is going to take her grocery shopping now? Linsey does and I do, but i LOVE the time i spent with her, even though its so frustrating to sort through 500 coupons that literally expired 5 years ago, and have to break it to her that she can no longer use them. But i love it. I love being with her, she holds my hand the whole time we drive together. Then there is getting around provo. I dont have transportation. Yes, there is public transportation but i am stressed thinking about it. Ive been bawling for the past bit to my mom on the phone. Only 8 more days and she and my little brother, and adopted little brother will be here. I cant wait. I know its just a phase and im stressed more than necessary, but hell..i didnt plan this accident and i sure wish i didnt have to deal with it. Thank goodness for the family and friends i have. Anyway, enough rambling...tomorrows another day, and i am not afraid...so bring on the rain.

Happy 6 Months!

all i ask is that you be mine forever...

Happy Six Months Chris! I love You!

So i guess after 6 months i should tell the real story of how me and the love of my life, Chris, met. Here Goes! Jenae and i heard about some big dance up in sandy...when we got there it turned out to be the creepiest thing ever! It also reminded me why i hated stake dances. So we hauled A outta there and of course, got lost. We passed a 7-11, but getting more into the ghetto we decided to turn around and pull in. There, parked next to us was Garrett and Chris...my eyes focused on chris as my world slowly began to turn upside down. We exchanged numbers after talking until 4 in the morning, just the four of us in some probably sketchy sandy neighborhood.

i couldnt wait to hear from him.

A week later, a text came. From there we started going on dates. The rest is history:)

second chances...

Saturday night was just another one of those work days. I was tired, ready to go home and snuggle in my bed, falling asleep to some re-run of CSI. Someone asked me for a ride home from work so i moved the super heavy TV my sister had just given me out of the front seat, to the back seat with the help of some dish boys. I gave her a ride home, and my friend insisted on driving seperate back to my house. So she started to follow me and we began the 5 minute drive back to my house. As i approached University Ave, traveling east on 2230, i looked in my rearview to check if she was close behind. I looked forward and continued to drive through the intersection, for me a green light. The five minute drive turned into a nightmare in a matter of seconds. I looked to my left to see two blinding lights, i heard and felt my car get hit, and all i could think about was how this was it. I focused on a picture of my little brother, one of my favorite people in the world, and was jerked all over the road. As i hoped two curbs and narrowly missed many things in the way, my car came to a stop up on the grass about 30 yards from impact. I turned off my car, opened the door and fell onto the grass. Within seconds my best friend was at my side telling me it was going to be ok. I was surrounded by people i had never met, telling me i was lucky. I asked if the other drivers were ok and they said yes. Within seconds from the time of impact i heard sirens. My heart was racing, my ribs aching, and my body bleeding. I had never been so scared in my enitre life. I remember looking back into my car to see my cheveron cup lodged in the dash of the passenger side. My phone was missing and so was my shoe. I was later told that impact was so great that my shoes had fallen off. The rescue squad and Provo PD came up to me in a hurry and escorted me to the ambulance. There they took my vitals and poked and prauded me to check all that was wrong. I was then taken to Utah Valley Regional where i was put in a room alone. The phone didnt call long distance. No one in my family knew. My friend and boyfriend made it to the hospital. Everyone was talking to me but i was in my own world. Why was i alive? The policeman came in and told me i was one of the luckiest girls he had ever met. The only reason why I had survived was my seatbelt and the airbags. The medics that brought me in came into my room to say goodbye. They told me to be thankful for my life and wished me the best. About an hour had passed before they took my X-rays. I was in a neck brace and basically naked. The XRay tech was a tiny asian man that went maybe to my belly button. He took my xrays and i was wheeled back to Room 12. I layed there crying and holding the hands of Chris and my friend that was following me. I still could not get over how i was alive. The two bright lights i saw before impact kept flashing in my mind. My family, my friends. What if i had been hurt worse? Was the last thing i said to someone I love you? The doctors bandaged me up and told me i was lucky nothing was broken, but that i would be sore for quite a while. About 3 am i was sent home, where i went to kali's house. The entire ride home was silent, except for the slow breaths i was taking inbetween tears. I have never been so greatful in my entire life. The support i had from family and friends was so great. My sister came down to provo sunday and took me to her house and loved me like i was her own. My nephews and niece both gave me big hugs, and Dave, linseys husband gave me a blessing. I know i was not alone in that car saturday night and that someone was looking after me. Even though, 5 days later i am still in alot of pain, i know it could have been worse and im grateful for the life i live and the breaths i take. Wear your seatbelt, and if you love someone, tell them.